UNTITLED

A dull and mundane ‘hello’ you say
I smile and smile and try cheerfully 
And you do what you do worst 
Okay, maybe I should put an end to my fkn energy

“There’s that silly girl” if I do something childish 
“Dude, do you have Parkinson’s?” if I’m too energetic

My mum tells me that a smile is contagious and so is a frown
And so maybe I should be someone who spreads a smile

But no one has any idea how I am behind my smiles

No one knows me 
No one reads the shit I write to myself 

I have moments of silence too, damn it

But a dull and mundane ‘bye’ you say
Sometimes I even get a ‘hmm’
Everything’s bothering everyone’s heads
Except to probably return me a smile.

P.S.: I’m not kidding, I’ve actually gotten that Parkinson’s comment. And yeah, let’s say this is a post on self love or at least an attempt to self love, in view of my miseries🙃